wat a boring weekends i hav...i tink i suffering depression alr...i dun feel like meeting the whole world...i dunno y...i feel very useless...Who can i tok to? everyone is giving me the same comments....but tats an ans or i should said conclusion...but hw to do it step by step? i dun even noe! i cant even overcome my psychological barrier...i hav nv been so pessimistic b4...i used to be the one who motivates 100s n 100s of ppl...giving them dreams n goals...but nw? i'm the one who has lost directions n dunno where i'm heading to. too many things happen tis 1 yr plus...i dunno is it when u r down everything around u goes down too... i'm rite here tinking abt grala...tinking abt my studies...n the most recent de is student council thingy.. hw much i wanna join in the camp do anyone noe? n i could onli be sitting here n tink...
tis one yr plus i hav hurt a few persons too(u noe who u r)...i'm sorry i cant be wif any of u all...cause i cant forget the past n i'm too afraid to accept any other gals to be my next partner for life...i noe i'm selfish... but i cant overcome tis! i hate myself too...but wat can i do...guiltiness filled my heart..n i believe she's the onli one who understand me. i hav nv love someone so much b4..but as saying always goes. onli noe hw to treasure someone when u lose it. i jus saw her videoclip abt her hosting n singing in a music cafe..my heart feel so pain cause i hate myself y i nv support or go see her perform b4.. in the past...i dun even noe abt her performance...i believe she noes i wun go tats y she nv ask me b4 =(
i guess tis is my retribution...i noe watever i do nw is useless...but i jus hope u can be happy everyday. seek for ur forgivness.

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